{ Can’t we just be cute? }

(listening to CUTIE STREET influenced me to write dis)

So I was looking thru and clearing some files as Gmail only allows 15GB of space for whatever reason. I mean, I cld pay like $2 a month for 100GB of space. But dat kinda feels like selling my soul and dignity away to corporate stooges 🤮

Anyways, while looking thru old files, I spotted dis:

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Sometimes I feel I am more endearing than I set myself out to be.

While I’m not the most handsome or pretty, I do radiate cute energy sometimes. Whether thru my looks or personality, ppl sometimes find me a lil hard to take seriously.

And I’d be lying if I said I didn’t lean into it sometimes.

When you’re small and not very good at hiding your emotions, ppl tend to see u as a harmless fella. Dat sorta makes it easier for ppl to let their guard down wif u.

Dis has gotten me some interesting reception from others. While the majority of ppl treat me normally, the outliers are quite noticeable.

Like how some strangers (like ppl in retail) tend to treat me better, when they were clearly not very nice to the dude right before me. Certain friends oso let me get away wif my childish nonsense and hot takes, even when they’re judgemental AF wif others.

I’ve even been straight up infantalized by teachers. Like, I was almost 20, and being treated like a young boy. On one hand it’s nice receiving affection. But on the other, not like dis. So idk how to feel abt dat.

Ppl oso generally have lower expectations of me, which I dun mind a whole lot. Unless I’m doing work I care abt. In dat case I’d like to be respected, for I likely would’ve worked my ass off on it.

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It’s quite amusing becos growing up, I was always seen as too serious and intimidating. Makes sense becos I was an emo dude who never smiled, and hated everyone.

In fact, I used to be “cool” becos of dat 😎

But u noe how Sakura Miyawaki went from HKT48 💞 kawaii girl:

To mature and hot Le Sserafim ✨ lady?

Yea sometimes I feel like dat, but in reverse 🙃

Dat being said, I am approaching my mid 20s…. which will slowly creep to my 30s. I shld probably work on acting more macho. The last thing I want is to be a 40+ year old man trying to act cute.

I’m sure society expects me to return to my stoic, “cool guy” image.

Or perhaps I can go a completely different route:

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But til then, I will embrace the present, and my youthful demeanor dat comes wif it. Becos I noe dat it makes certain ppl around me abit happier.

I will smile more, be open wif expressing my emotions in real life, and just be an overall positive person. (or at least, try…)

Besides dat, I’ll oso put more emphasis on health to sustain dis youth. Skincare, eating right, and ~7 hours of sleep per night are all things I’m hitting, and trying to maintain consistently. Currently trying to put on just a lil more fat, to make my skin more full (I think dats how it works, lol)

Low-key sucks dat growing old is inevitable 😖. Why can’t we just be cute forever?

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But I noe dat aging gracefully is a thing 😌. I shld oso not overstay my welcome, and let the younger ones take over once my turn’s up…

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22.02.2026