Life’s been slightly busier lately. As a student, dat kinda sucks. I rlly dun enjoy having to commit to multiple things at once. But alas, das how the world forces u to be productive.
So I’ve been pretty tired lately, and dun rlly have much energy to do a whole lot, outside of wats needed of me. I have come to very much appreciate chilling on my bed, while reading or watching my random nonsense on YouTube.
Ofc, overworking is not good for the mind and soul. So I try and make it a point to finish wif wtv I’m doing b4 around 10:30pm, and just let myself rest and chill abt for like an hour, before I sleep.
Big emphasis on the word try, eh. If u were actly keeping track, u wld realise how bad my time management is, and how strong my tendency to procrastinate and get distracted is…
But 10:30pm onwards is now a time for rest and relaxation. And oso abit of reflection. By dat I mean emo-ing while listening to music…
So, I’m sort of a lonely dude. Not dat I dun have ppl, but u noe, it gets tiring pretending to be a normal and competent dude when I’m around them. I need a lot of alone time afterwards to be myself and recharge, which makes dis my sacred time 🌠
While the quietness does get amplified during those times (esp cos its at night), the music I listen to acts as a counter to dat. Dat is, when I’m listening to the right songs, ofc.
But the right songs typically involve those from my wide array of boy bands I have weird obsessions wif. In fact, I might even consider them my para social boyfriends…
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Which is a statement dat ppl give me funny looks for when I say out loud.
Ok, I noe dat para social relationships aren’t the healthiest things in the world. But I noe my relationship wif my photo card Rosé puts me in a questionable position to say dat…
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But no, they’re not good. Not sustainable in the long term. Humans need nearby humans. Not humans who only exist digitally, far far away…
Oso, I’m aware dat I say pretty sus things. But I’m definitely not gay. I mean, I dun have anything against dat, but it has been too common of a misunderstanding recently. I assure u dat I’m as straight as an arrow.
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But just for dis busy period, I dun care abt all dat. I will be hella sus, and indulge in whatever unhealthy para social behaviour I want to 😈
Specifically, there r 3 songs I’m currently fixated on, dat make me feel special, and make my heart go uwu <3
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3. The Astronaut: Jin
Idk much abt Jin, besides being BTS’ visual, and oso the tuna guy. I didn’t even noe dis song existed until recently, and it came out like 3 years ago.
But damn, dis song feels very magical. It gives some cosmic vibes, like his voice takes u out of dis world. Becos when ur away from everything else, there is nooooo oneeeee elseee. And u get heaven (Jin) to urself.
I like it when he drags the words during the chorus, making it the best part. The lyrics oso hit at a personal level. Dats, after going to genius.com to read the translation of the Korean.
U noe dis song was actly co-written by Coldplay. It was oso a sort of parting gift from Jin to his fans, before he enlisted in the military. I think dats prolly why the song feels so emotional, and it most definitely succeeded in achieving dat vibe it was intending to give.
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2. Yan Huo De Ji Jie (煙火的季節): F4
Dis song was actly the ending song for Meteor Garden 2. And dat show is old as shit. U noe how old?
Dis is a screenshot from the Channel 8 airing of the show. U see dat Olympic logo at the corner? They have dat there whenever there’s an Olympic games going on. U noe which Olympics was going on when dis aired?
2004! Bruh, dats so long ago at dis point. I was like, barely alive, incapable of making memories yet at dat point in my life. I was in diapers, man…
Anyways, despite being too young to have seen dat show on TV, I still get weirdly nostalgic listening to dis.
Actly, watching Meteor Garden 2 in general gives me dat feeling. It’s amusing how similar early 2000s Taiwan and Singapore look. It’s like, u can tell me a scene was filmed right here in Yishun, and it wld prolly look quite believable.
But for the song specifically, when they all harmonise and go all out for dat last chorus, yea dat sounds like heaven. It’s like, mmmm yes, these 4 handsome men, singing for me 😀
It makes me go:
I love F4. They’ll always be the personification of a time dat I barely remember, but still think fondly about, for whatever reason.
Maybe the world is moving too fast nowadays…
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1. Heaven By Your Side: A1
A1 is such a random band, lol. I feel like they were never as popular as they shld’ve been. I oso dunno why they, and the previous band, have names dat are oso coordinates on a chess board. But maybe it’s to stand out…. or maybe it was the trend… or something like dat.
But A1 seems to have been pretty big in Philippines, back in the days. I only noe dis cos there’s quite a few videos of them performing in Manila, in recent years, as like sort of a reunion concert. The crowds oso actly sing along to the lyrics, so dats prolly an indicator to how genuinely popular they were.
Those live performances, of dis particular song, are the best. They’d be seated in front of some moving background of some stars, and singing straight into ur heart. I can imagine being a Filipino fan at the front, watching and listening to the beautiful voices of those men, and being like:
The song is pleasant to the ears, and oso abit cheesy, but in a good, wholesome way. It’s chorus can be addictive to sing along to, and it’s overall something u can listen to for when ur feeling romantic, or when u just wanna hear good music. And wat more can u want from a song?
06.11.2025
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